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I'm dancing with tears in my eyes
So she's back and Dad wants to go out to dinner so she can tell us all about her trip, her engagement, and her wedding plans.  REALLY not what I want to hear today.  I'm trying so hard not to be depressed about missing Kelsey's wedding today.  Spending a dinner listening to Lynn talk all about her and her "wedding" is not going to help.  I really don't want to go and pretend to be happy for her.

And we got a mini lecture from his dad today about not leaving our water bottles in the sink.  All I could think is: you wash a couple bottles a week.  It's not a daily thing.  I wash your fucking coffee pot more than you wash bottles.  Makes me want to stop doing that.  He doesn't use water bottles and we don't drink coffee.  It'd be a fair trade.  *s*  But of course I won't stop doing it.  I won't go out of my way to do it, but I won't stop.

Dad also wants to start making plans for Christmas.  Is it really so hard for the family to understand that there's no vacation time until February?  There are black out dates in December that he can't request off.  Traveling for Christmas probably won't happen.  And he makes such a big deal about me seeing my parents, yet this spending Christmas with Dane's side of the family- again- feels selfish of him.  When am I going to get Christmas with my family if it's going to turn into every year is Christmas with his family.

Can I go back to the beautiful drunken stupor I was in last night?
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Hm. Is it Dane that's wanting to spend it with his family? or his dad? And is "Dad" your dad or his dad? *confuzzled*

Either way, I think if I were you I'd at least let my voice be heard...

It's all Dane's dad. All of it (including 'Dad' becuase that's what I call him). I know my parents miss me, but they're trying to plan a trip for next year and my mom's become a skype addict. I'm really kind of okay not seeing my parents for a while since I only saw them a couple times a year when I was only living 300 miles and spent an outrageous amount of time with them before we moved here. So I don't know.

I'll let you know on how this voicing my opinion goes. At least Dane knows how I feel.

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